I didn't realize how familiar Nepal had become until I arrived in Thailand. Sure, I don't speak much Nepali, but I can speak enough to have a little bit of small talk, ask for directions, or buy things at the market (and I can understand some of the responses too!). Of course, I can ask people at length about their medical problems, but that doesn't help much outside of clinic. I can get around by public transport, and know the difference between the local price, tourist price, and rip-off price on just about anything (I don't mind paying the tourist price). I can guess whether or not I want to risk using a bathroom in an establishment after a quick glance around at the workers and setting. I know the culture, and am known at my favorite restaurants, guest houses, and cafes.
While Thailand is more set up for tourists, and the facilities are more familiar (clean bathrooms with TP and 24 hour hot water!!!), it's a totally unfamiliar place to me. The language is so unfamiliar that I can't make heads or tails out of what anyone is saying to me, even with the aid of my phrasebook. I have no idea what things should cost, and have to look in detail at the bills to figure out how much I am handing over. Of course, a day or two is all it really takes to get to know the basics, but it really is a shock to your system to realize that where you are is truly foreign.
It's a great opportunity to look at everything with new eyes, and exercise the ability to do so even in familiar places. It's a muscle that rarely gets exercised as we acclimatize to our surroundings so quickly. When we forget how to use our 'new eyes', it's easy to start to take the good things for granted, or miss out on the little joys in life--and often it's the little joys that create the big joys.
Using our 'new eyes' is what allows us to follow our personal path, "the road less traveled by" instead of the prescribed path. You can see the signs left especially for you rather than following the herd.
I realize that more and more of my posts keep coming back to the same idea; following your path. It seems that nothing else is more important than that. In theory it is such a simple concept, but in practice it is difficult, confusing, and often lonely. For me, the only way to continue resolutely along my path is to continue to find new tools to do so. A daily practice, exercising my 'new eyes', finding a sangha, discussing dharma, all of these help the path be a little clearer and a little less lonely.
Thank you everyone for following me on my journey! I return back to the states very soon, and am so VERY EXCITED for my next chapter.
Love and light,
Ece